im missing in the dark in my heart..i can't find my way home ...

dont know why i just dont want 2 let go ... 
why very stupid  ..
she  already belong to certain person
i know .. .
i want her 2 know im in love with some one ..
is just a lie . i love her ..
why i want 2 lie to her ..
i want her 2 let go of me first ..
is very hurt ! i hate this kind of feeling... 
i try to trow away all the thing i keep in my mind.. 
all the memory ..all the past ..
it just keep coming ...
is this the thing i get ..for all the thing i done ..